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I'm Being Terrible

I am being terrible. I keep wanting to update, but then I don't. Add on top of that my recent move, which has left me internet-less for the past month, so good-bye cellphone data. There is a snowstorm going on right now in New York, a big fat snowstorm, and I am in a coffeeshop doing "work" online. I have been blessed with the curse of having too much time- the idle mind is the devil's playground. So the past three hours I have been doing everything else online except update this website, and I keep thinking about it, but then, as aforementioned, I don't update. I want to revamp it, and maybe start a separate real blog that doesn't need to feel censored. I have a lot of photos of myself on this website. I might take some down. I want to refresh it all again, but it is so...much...work...

All that said, some fun things have happened since my last September 1st update, most notably of which is that my pilot for Atlanta was picked up to series! I also shot a Nike webseries, and have flown to LA for press (my first time in the Golden State!), I modeled here and there, I will be going to Slamdance to support my boyfriend's film, and I feel like other things have happened concerning my profession but I don't remember. I've been traveling, which is wonderful, but that muddles the past couple of months in terms of what I have been up to. Now! This was all just a little teaser! I will update, post by post (with photos!) on each little event and opportunity that has come my way. 

Much love, ya'll!

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Disclaimer

I know that I always write about how wonderful and how great everyone was or has been. The experiences are always positive, and even though this all has a relatively candid spirit behind it when I type, my posts may become a little vanilla, since the tone rarely changes. Of course, sometimes people are difficult to work with, or I cry because I'm frustrated, or I'm angry at another actor or director because I think that their attitude is unfair or inappropriate. This work is hard. Even when it's just sitting in a coffee shop and sending out obligatory emails, or when it's taking hours to get ready for an audition that works really well when you're at home and then falls apart in front of the casting director. Memorizing new material every day, and dolling yourself up for what? Sometimes, often times, my confidence is through the floor and I'm asking myself what the hell I'm doing and whether or not I'm good enough. But then something just right falls into place, and the worries go away for a flicker of  a moment. And that's why this is worth it. Because that high still exists when all is settled, at peace, and people are connecting.

I always express myself positively partially because, in all honesty, I don't want anyone to stumble across this tiny blog and catch me badmouthing anyone. It's just not worth it. But also because every experience, even if it is a difficult and emotional one, is still work. That's what I want to do. I want to make things. I want my work to be good, and every millisecond of experience, positive or negative, feeds that. It's all steps toward growth- so I try to take it all in stride, and put the light in the forefront. It might all come back around- to you, to me. 

I'm auditioning a bit right now. Some callbacks too. I just took a class with Bob Krakower- but this week is quite slow. Maybe just end of summer blues. I'll check in here again if something does catch fire, though.

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In The Spirit of Keeping Busy

There is sometimes this sense that I have where I feel like I am too busy to update here and talk about what has been going on. I refreshed everything on this site and then just let it gather some dust again. But I'm back today with a little bit of news. It will be all over the place: a messy retelling of the jigsaw that the past month-and-a-half has been, but it's all worth talking about, I feel. Maybe I'll organize the events, letter them, so that there is a little structure and I don't have to make fanciful paragraphs that weave in and out of one another. Less phrases to curate that allow me to transition smoothly from one topic to another. So, without further ado:

a. I wrapped on Wolves! It was my first rather significant role in a feature, and it took up most of my summertime, hot June and July, but I made friends and it was just wonderful. There isn't much more to say about it, as boring as that is. 


b. I flew down to Atlanta a couple of weeks ago in order to shoot Donald Glover's pilot, Atlanta! It was my first time getting taken care of with nice airplane seats and a nice view from quite a hotel room- a three day sejour from New York. I had never been to Atlanta before, and I didn't really get to see much since I spent most of my time in the south shooting, but I loved walking around on my own and discovering what I could. I felt like a woman, strong and self-made, perusing through the world. Naturally, all had been set up and planned for me, so this was really more of a fantasy, but the trip let me recognize that all of this is worth working for. I want to push through so that I can travel and discover- both physically and emotionally. We're waiting on a word to see if the network will pick it up, so fingers crossed. Here's a nice duck that I saw down there:


c. We shot a short a couple of weeks ago called MBFF, a quickie that lasted two days. Directed by Tony Ducret, it told the story of a former fight-dog, but the film was from the dog's literal point of view. So that offered some alternative camera work- the playbacks were pretty interesting. We were in Brooklyn and Long Island, and spent the days on set with an actual dog! Obviously that was very sweet and cute, and it was a fun weekend to have.


d. There is this funky web promo called Honest Gil (Click here in order to view one of their videos) that discusses political bribery, and the misuse of money in politics. They are a funny collection of videos that take on the format of a campaign ad, but "Gil Fulbright" speaks honestly, rather than wrapping up his real intentions in flighty promises and euphemisms. Well, I'll be in one of their upcoming videos. Get involved! At http://honestgil.com!


e. There was another weekend where I squeezed in a short with some friends. An acquaintance from long ago wrote and directed Dreamshare, and asked if I could join in this project. A surreal take on relationships and the emotional exchanges within- it takes on this groundhog day looping effect. We spent two days filming in a hot apartment in Brooklyn. I'll post here when it's all cut together!


f. My past caught up with me when an old friend from high school contacted me and asked if I could be in a series of makeup tutorial videos. He was directing for Refinery 29, and needed some chicas, so he asked me to come in. And it was fun! Reconnecting. The room was chilly, and people ended up being a little stressed out, but we all left with smiles and they made some pretty work. I ended up coming in again to record the voice over that explains the tips and tricks for everything that they did! There were five models, twenty videos, so they should be popping up online soon!


I'm going to keep the end clipped and short, because there is already so much that you just went through- but these months have had a lot of flitting and fluttering around. I didn't get to leave the city much, but I suppose the pay off is worth it, huh? Staying busy, I suppose.

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Movie and Pilot

It's been over a month since I had a chance to grace these pages, but upon this return I've brought along new headshots, some news, and a new look to the website! I think it's prettier, and I'm sure that it will keep shifting, but I feel happy for the moment. If you click here, however, you can see the new headshots. They too will continue to change, but as time flows. 

This past month I have been shooting the feature Wolves, written and directed by Bart Freundlich, and have been having such a beautiful time. It allowed me to quit my day job (that I knew wouldn't be sustainable anyhow), and has blessed me with an unbelievable group of uplifting, intelligent, and funny people to work with. Really. I've already cried more than a handful of times over how lucky I feel that this project fell into my life. And in the midst of shooting I was cast in Donald Glover's new Pilot Atlanta! This begins in a couple of weeks down south, and I'm over the moon about working in a city that I haven't yet had a chance to visit. And just ecstatic about the team that I will have the chance to collaborate with.

So briefly, that has been the turn of these past 30 days. I will throw in some new thoughts again soon!

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New Film...

I've been cast in an upcoming feature! There are no dates attached yet, so I don't want to publicize everything quite yet, but it is a very nice role and I'm very excited! I also have some new headshots coming out quite soon, they've already been snapped (for quite some time now), they just need to be edited and then revealed. There are, however, quite a few to look through, so I'm hoping that I will take the time to go through them in the next couple of days. But I should be adding a couple of new pictures and videos up here soon, and refresh this website a little (if I can find a minute to even breathe. I've got a new day job as well, and it is consuming a lot of my energy, so here's to seeing if it even lasts...)

But, I'm looking forward! As always...

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We Keep Shooting...

As soon as my play came to an end, I began working on another short film that Laurel Parmet directed. It was an homage to The Bronx, or New York in general, and I liked that uptown was finally getting a shout out. I have always lived in the higher numbers, way beyond Central Park and above where tourist maps cut out, but I love it up there. We deserve a nod. The short was about youth, friendship, and love; a visual piece about young people in the city. I'm excited for the final cut!

I also began shooting a short film for another Columbia student, fifth year Chad Scarborough- this being one of his final pieces for school. The days were long and grueling (and by God, they were cold), but so, so much fun and rewarding. I am so happy that I had a chance to be on this incredibly supportive set. Due to weather we were set back a little bit, so we are still planning on a couple of pick-up days, and finishing up scenes that we didn't have a chance to wrap on. 

And pilot season has also begun! I have been running frantically from audition to audition, but took a break this week to fly to Berlin because my boyfriend is featuring a short film here! So I'm being as plus-one as I can be and enjoying the ride...

 

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Cast!

The TMT Stein Lab: When this you see remember me

The TMT Stein Lab: When this you see remember me

Ah, so it's been a little bit since I caught up on here- and I didn't mean to leave everything in the dark, I was just a little distracted. I don't know if I've already written about this, but I have been rehearsing for my upcoming show these past couple of months; we open next week! Thanks to Target Margin Theater we will be performing White Wines, a play by Gertrude Stein, at The Bushwick Starr. We run January 15th-24th, and if you would like to come, click here for tickets! 

For more general information on White Winesgo to the Target Margin Theater's website, and you can read a little bit more about our project and others going on as well.

 

 

In other news, I recently taped for an upcoming feature called Applesauce (Thank you Lindsay and Gersh!) where I had the chance to work with director Onur Tukel, and had an amazing time. It's just great to work with open and encouraging people- sort of refreshing. So that will be out later this year!

I also have been cast as the lead in a Columbia thesis short film- I'm shooting with Chad Scarborough at the end of the month. I'll have to get a little more fit for the role, I think, but it's good to work toward something. A new little workout routine to help fill in the little gaps of time that I will have throughout the rest of this month. Looking forward, always looking and moving forward. 

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Coaches

I'm trying to focus and follow the curves of this path. I want to ground my work and discover consistency and growth, so I have been working to find an acting coach. I will most likely be taking class with Alice Spivak right after the start of the new year, and begin private sessions with Clyde Baldo. Friends who have worked and studied with Alice and Clyde led me to connect with them; I trust in their experience, and was hoping that I could benefit and learn from their guidance. It's hard embarking on all these things on one's own! 

But, we are strong in numbers! So I am really looking forward to strengthening my foundation in performing. 

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Updates! And a play?

Oh! Halloween has already come and gone, and christmas is on our heels, but I haven't forgotten this little blog! I've been busy, sort of as usual, but trying to find peace in the moments in-between. I've been auditioning, traveling, rehearsing, working, and trying to wrap my head and time around all of that.

I had a couple of promising leads to some new television shows, but I suppose that I will get lucky the next time! I am, however, officially participating in a play this coming January! The Bushwick Starr will be presenting a production called White Wines: an interpretation of Gertrude Stein's Interstanding, directed by Nic Adams. I haven't been in a play in quite some time, and the stage is where my love of performing was born, so I am happy to be going back home, in a sense. I have also, in the past month, shot a couple of scenes for Columbia students again-- workshopping some in-class scenes as well. We had fun last night while interpreting a portion of A Woman Under the Influence, and I will probably have access to a cut of the scene by this weekend. I'm still waiting on some other pieces as well- but they will come as they come!
I will work toward updating more regularly, or just as things happen. 

Till then, my darlings!

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